我只是想要
Wednesday, June 29, 2011


Camp Hooka-Sakka

Camp Hooka-Sakka was indeed a successful and fun experience for me and my fellow friends. I held the role of being the group facilitator for Ooga. I felt that this experience was very different from the times when I was the participants during the HFC camps.

We spent the weeks doing a lot of preparatory work toward the lead-up to the camp. We were tasked to lead the following groups and help to ensure that the games were running smoothly as planned. I felt that it is a privilege to be given this unique opportunity to lead the younger clients. This experience, in turn, showed me a gateway to give back to society and AWWA as a whole. I feel thankful to AWWA for all the services they had provided me for the last few years, and this was a great chance for me to repay them. I hoped that I have done well during the course of the camp.

We were charged to plan activities for the campfire and some games during the second day. In all honesty, the preparation among the June committee wasn’t very well done. The preparations done by us were last minute and very messy. We were called to task and did a better job after which. It was a wake-up call for u, telling us to take the camp preparations seriously and do our very best to ensure that the activities would be fun and beneficial for the clients involved.

With these objectives in mind, we dug in and planned a proper face-to-face meeting to discuss the details of the camp preparations. Hopefully, the experience of helping out to plan such a big camp will put me in a good stead for the future. The experiences have taught me many skills such as teamwork, communication and people relations among others.

Being part of the committee was a privilege. We have worked together to lighten the atmosphere very much. I felt that the clients did themselves very proud with their enthusiasm to participate in all the activities. I think that they felt a belonging towards the groups they were assigned to. Thus, they were all quite active and try their best to ensure that their group would win any games they played in.

Being the facilitator for Ooga was an exciting challenge for me. As I browsed through the name list, I realized that many of the clients and some volunteers were new. I took the opportunity to meet new people to expand my social circle. A week before, we were instructed that we were tasked to assist each other in ensuring that the games run smoothly as planned. Guiding the clients during activities was a great learning experience too. Though Ooga finished last in the camp’s first game, I wass very encouraged to see that the clients didn’t feel discouraged. I did tell the clients that there was still some way to go before the end, and there were ample chances for us to claw back the deficit. In fact, the clients were very motivated to do their best and enjoy playing the activities. Indeed, Ooga was to come storming back to finish second in the final group standings.

I was happy to see that the clients were always very cooperative and helpful towards one another. A good example of that would be the relationship between Lynn and Joyce. During the camp preparations, the clients were all very active in contributing ideas to the skit. I was my pleasure to be part of the group to perform the most interesting skit! I felt that they showed fantastic team spirit and togetherness throughout the camp, which does make me very proud of their achievements. Personally, I have indeed learnt a lot of important lessons too. I also exercised my level of self independence, while learning to be aware of changes around the surroundings. It teaches me the responsibility of looking out for others while taking care of myself at the same time. I also challenged myself to walk along the rocky grounds on my own, standing back up despite falling. By being a leading voice and role model, I hope to instill my experience with them so that they can grow to be success in life. For example, I hope to impart in them self independence, having learnt the skill when I was their age. I do see a cheerful spirit and fearlessness sin them, traits which I could learn too. This camp has also provided a platform for the children to build bonds with their siblings. However, at times the clients have to learn not to be too reliant on the volunteers because they are there as a helping hand for the clients. Overall, they were a credit to themselves.

For the junior committee members, I felt that we did quite fine overall. Despite this, I think that the campfire wasn’t very well done by our standards. Based on our past experiences, I fel that we could put up a better performance for the clients and volunteers to enjoy. Nonetheless, I hope to take these learning experiences on hand so that I could grow and improve further as a person. I wish to thank Yu Kun for the wonderful guidance he has given to all the junior committee members. He made sure that we were on task and wanted the best efforts from us. During the night’s debriefing session, he shared his opinions with us and also guided us along by pointing out some aspects of our performances which we could improve. I took his comments on board and improved for the second day.

Learning Points – What have I learnt?

Throughout the camp experience, I learnt to take responsibility and initiative to lead the younger clients. In a way, this facilitation role has helped me in building my self confidence and leadership skills, which took me out of my control zone. I also learnt to adapt to differing situations and thus react to solve them as quickly as possible. I spoke up more often, always trying to inject various ideas for the skits and totem pole design. It was a different method to learn because I was perhaps used to wait for answers to be given. I feel that these experiences will help me when I step into the workforce or pursue further studies in the future. If given another opportunity, I would relish them to lead the clients in future camps.

Feedback

I think that overall, the camp was very well planned as I see that the clients were enjoying themselves very much. The activeness and loudness of the various cheers were mostly made by the volunteers, as such we may not know if the clients really did participate in the cheers. During meal times, I also realized that the amount of food for some of the clients, were too much, more than what they could eat. Thus, food was wasted. Other than that, the atmosphere during mealtimes was quite good. The campfire preparations were good too, as I think we obtained the objective of surprising the clients with the appearance of Anmi Dodo. However, the junior committee members did not get the opportunity to take part in the night walk, as I was looking forward to it. The mural painting activities were also beneficial to the clients as they get to show appreciation to the staff who have helped them throughout their lives so far.




My Inspiration
Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Wednesday, May 25, 2011


To be perceived in a way, i brush it aside as a way for me for some personal self reflection. I take it on board and learn, because i value and trust the opinions. I deeply regret going into such relationships back then, which somehow caused many things to spiral down.

I hope that i'm still treasured as much I was among my friends. I'm sorry for maybe kinda taking it for granted when i once had something i love alot. It's just a coincidence that we were chasing for the same objectives back then

On the other hand, i'm looking forward to graduation day! :D

Sometimes, things are just not meant to be

Maybe the type of songs which i listen to, will always set my mind racing with thoughts. And the most influential ones are the songs from the artist i like most.



My Inspiration
Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Saturday, May 7, 2011


I know one thing: It may NEVER EVER be the same again! Definitely not as much as I hoped for. Nothing caused it behind the scenes, it just happened as it did. I blame no one, maybe i have to blame myself for all of it after all. 我总觉得非常失望...

Sometimes, i just think its just being very very unfair to me dont you think? Yet we dont care to stop for just one minute, and really THINK over it correctly! Now i think i really do understand how the feelings hurt very much...

As said, it just happened over time without the people knowing why and how it happened. Yes, u may not even care becuase u still got your friend to seek consoles to, never knowing that friend have also slowly turn against me, without reason at all. To think that I dont even think to care is just a big and serious misunderstanding.

等到失去才会懂得珍惜. Now that i get to experience it first hand, now i understand how it feels.

One always say that when I find them to talk, no matter how, both just have nothing much. Think of it in another angle, i don't believe that the others will have it as poorly, at least having more than what I have to offer perhaps. Then again, its not as if I never put in the effort to try at all.

Take for example, it just seem to me to be very very long ago that we really really did practice together at all. Yes, each of us may have different targets after all, but does that mean that we can forgo and just focus on whatever we are aiming for. Well, maybe because there is a companion who shares the same targets thats why maybe i didn't want to join in and thus is left behind...

I just didnt want to interrupt what you all have been practicing and their respective mutual collectiveness and music carousel.

Then, the other week, something may have just unknowingly happened, which does make me wonder what I have to get all these ignorance. But think over it, if it was someone else in my shoes, how would that person have felt? Both groups in opposite corners, one of which have the company of each other, while the other goes the other way.

I just came in for lesson the other day. By the time i reached, they have already took a corner to start practicing already. Nevertheless, i just think they didnt really acknowlege me joining in for lesson. Thinking back 2 years, i'm confident that they would welcome me to join them for practice, and surely i would joined them happily. Seeing the case unfold as it is now, I just felt my heart sink at that moment. Its just so disappointing, that I really didn't want to join them, and started to drift myself away from them. In contrary, I would love to have joined them now since they have steadily improved. Not though i want to barge in for the sake of it. From that day, I havent been in very good mood throughout. And for this, who, what do i point to for the cause of it, i also don't know.

Fair enough, now you already built a good friendship with her, i know how good it is to have such a good friend, and as such, i was never going to be jealous of it at all. Moreover, I was formerly one of my best friends. If its torn now, will it be fair to me if you took on the mantle and then left me alone? What did i do wrong, friendship-wise, to deserve such ignorance?

Over the past 3 years since we started our adventure, i think I have done my very best to ensure that we will all do well, musically and socially. The way i gone around helping and motivating everyone, is because i want all of my friends and teammates to do well in the same interests, not to push pressure on anyone else. I don't know how you think that i want it for myself. Remember a year of Special Awards, on the performace day itself, i talked through and convinced the instructors to let all participate as a group. When u missed out, I helped you throughout and made sure that you will make it for the next one. if those arent enough to prove my passion for this group of friends, I really don't know what would.

Now, it is split into teams. its fine to me that naturally the two of them will join together, i understand that. How about saying to me, to join them together? Not that i want to turn against you, but i think there wasn't a wee bit of effort to include me inside your group. To make it worse, you know that I was searching for a group. And you know the group i clearly and really wanted to join, not for musical success, but for the friendship and bonds I shared with you two over the 2 or so years.

But sometimes, i think it is imperative that you should also try to understand my feelings. I do want to join you, but then it seems that i have lost the courage to even approach, let alone starting a communication topic.

Suddenly, the past happenings where we went very happy in each other's company is long-distant. Can we change it for the better, to make me relieve those happy times we had together as friends.

There was even times when we were in it together for the sake of the safety of our so-called best friend.

If I were to put all the evidence of our friendship and togetherness together, I can guarantee that we will feel emotional on how it all began and continue all the way, such that we were recognized as very good friends with ech other for company. I just wish that I could experience again the presence which brought me so much happiness and comfort.


Just think, i have never wanted credit for anything at all, not even when it all went well. And when things turn the other way around, maybe unknowingly it is i, above all, who feel disappointed by the way it turns out.

To be honest, all this while, the main objective is that I really want to learn and build friendly relations with all who are my friends, thats all, it that hard to give? Frankly, i dont want any credit to say that "he has done well to take us to where we are". I still think that everyone had played their part to take the TEAM to where we are today and all should be proud of this together. Let me say that I am a very humble person, really. As long as I have done my part to enjoy and thus led those around me to be happy, i will be very happy indeed.

However, honestly I havent been very happy at all for quite some time already. Just how can it become a 'sinking ship' even since. Yes, i can tell you that I am indeed very passionate about the state of things there.

The reason? Its because of the friends i have among that group of friends, and not because im seeking something for personal gain. The latter has never even crossed my mind.

Think, for example, if we had gone on to go for June, does that mean i want something personally in return for that different experience? No. I was very determined to go for that, if it became available, is because I really want to gain a different experience with all my friends. Only that can make me happy, really...

Perhaps the understandings has been misguided all along. I just take it and from there, left it all alone, only just...

Do anyone know how hurt to see the 'sinking ship' go lower? If i bother to feel something for it, do you think now, that I wanted to get something out of this 'ship' for gain? Not at all.

We know how hard we all tried to make the team click together. When it did bear fruit, everyone was very happy then. Secretly, after that highest point we did achieve together, how many knew that I shed tears of joy during the event? Because in my and our minds, we know that we have finally achieved what we have set out to achieve at the beginning. Then, I said to myself secretly, "How could I go after this very emotional success" Honestly, I cannot do that, so I knew that I wanted to experience more of such of such successes. Not that I took it for granted that having achieved what I already set out, that I had no other motivations. In fact, It is directly the opposite way of thinking, that I am even more determined to achieve more with all of them. I really do.. With this, whoever who reads this at any point, will know my wish already.

I don't think i'm wrong or selfish to go and search for another companion to take the gloom off my feelings towards all these situations. I think that helped me somewhat.

Saying that I may have not have been concerned about maintaining and building on this friendship, is mistaken.

I'm not saying that the situation is so bad, just that its not as good as i previously liked.

I just want to say that it has been very unfair to me, thats all

I just wish for a listening ear and one do can really understand how I'm feeling...Thats all i ask for, nothing more, is that too much of an ask?



My Inspiration
Saturday, May 07, 2011

Tuesday, February 15, 2011


Somehow, i knew it will happen eventually, it was only a matter of time....



My Inspiration
Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Thursday, February 10, 2011


有宁愿的我, 独自的传说在人去种,
有离远的风, 您的记忆却温暖着我。

仿佛听见你的名字,展示发现那只是幻觉
傻傻也是那么以的寂寞,原来我真的想念你了。

从回忆那天,以过了无助地找着黑夜
难过与不舍,你是否同样在演示着。

总是没有勇气对你坦白,
反反复复我被心情选拉着,
挣扎之后心和你了,我爱你不再逃避了。

只想为你写一首歌,为你的第一个
恋爱是什么,我都快忘记了。
因遇见你,对我傻傻微笑的你,原来爱不远,你就在我的身边。

亲情有这样一个你,让我对爱不再放弃
冷决的心,早已被你战局
给我你的手,你的孤单有我的手后,
如果你爱我,请不要放手

从回忆那天,以过了无助地找着黑夜
难过与不舍,你是否同样在演示着。
总是没有勇气对你坦白,
反反复复我被心情选拉着,
挣扎之后心和你了,我爱你不再逃避了。

只想为你写一首歌,为你的第一个
恋爱是什么,是你欢喜我的。
想告诉你,这感觉从没消失过,更想知道你是否还在乎我。

亲情有这样一个你,让我对爱不再放弃
用心付出,思念你的旋律
给我你的手,你的孤单有我的手后,
我们的幸福,请不要放手。

让我陪你,一直到最后。



My Inspiration
Thursday, February 10, 2011

Sunday, January 30, 2011


Perhaps i should not have given that role at all in the first place, not when there are a few leaders around.

Perhaps is just that it just makes me concern and work too hard to please and do well for them. Such that i forgo a lot of important factors which actually made the group as close to each other as it is today.

I built and yet i not sure whether was it me who just spoil everything, the spirit and togetherness of the whole team to bring so much success until the end of 2009.

Somehow, i just lost my touch, feel and motivation of it amid just wanting to 'win' without even putting effort for myself. I suppose i must start to put that effort in, for me to catch up already. No more chances of me becoming complacent already, It is about time that I have to work towards being worthy for the chance to part of the team yet

Every time that I am stagnant then other people can be able to improve, and thus reduce the difference between each. So i think i have to be more committed such that i can be a asset to the team again (:

I rather develop my friendship with my friends, then the performances are just the motivations for us to support each other.

Rebuilding of motivation and confidence in progress.

I hope that I can get back to the team again soon..





My Inspiration
Sunday, January 30, 2011

Sunday, January 23, 2011


7C6, competition for places...to achieve the biggest dream..



My Inspiration
Sunday, January 23, 2011

MY BLOG

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About Me

Jermayne Chong Yuan Bin♥
3th May 1991♥
19♥
Taurus♥
Manchester United♥


My Loves
1) Being with my Family

2) Spending time with friends, clique and befrienders

3) MSN Clique Chats

4) Guitar Practices



My Dream
1) To learn to Be more Independent

2) To be able to play the guitar well, mastering chords

3) Hope that some friends can walk without any walking aids some day

4) Enjoying time with my befrienders (:

5) Enjoying my school days with DMIT 0804/0904

6) Achieving Musical Success with Guitar Ensemble

7) Gaining Entry to pursue University Education with NUS




我只是想要
1) Guitar

2) Music Keyboard

Friends



DMIT 0804 =D
Long Yuan
Joanna
Ethel
Roy
Liyana
Wei Ye
Cai Ying
Dennick
Peck Ying
Peng Meng
Jesslyn
Joe
Hong Wei
Colin
Yong Hua
Suraj
Wei Kang
Daryl


AWWA Friends
♥Amanda♥
♥Sylvia♥
♥Khristine♥
♥Mei Yoke♥
♥Yuan Ping♥
♥Philip♥
♥Philip(Chinese)♥
♥Shawn♥
♥Kang Wei♥
♥Ting Jun(TJ)♥
♥Boon Keng♥
♥Jie Wee♥
♥Lynn♥
♥Guan Yuan♥
♥SPARKZ♥


Sec Sch Friends
Ben Tan
Wei Liang


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THANK YOU! :D


gelivia♥


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